We have been told to expect a direct referral by May (a phone call), though that was back at the beginning of December when EP’s (emigration permits) were suppose to reset on Jan. 1. We have since been told that the ministry will not begin issuing EP's again until Feb 1...which we still haven't heard of any being issued, but we are trusting and praying that they start assigning them this month. Basically, this effects us because since they aren't letting children leave the country right now, that also means they aren't really referring many children either. This means, more children being placed in baby homes instead of the preferred foster care system. Don’t ask me the logic behind all this. I can’t find any.
Which brings me to the coveted referral emails… Since we are on the special needs waiting list, Holt also sends out emails featuring several children from different countries awaiting adoption. We could also get matched this way. (This is, for all said purposes, just another “shared list” of children.) Those emails were flooding into our inbox from June (when we started) until about September (when we fell in love with a little girl who turned out not to be ours.) Since turning down that sweet girl’s file, the emails have all but stopped.
I’m trying not to be impatient and obsessive, but knowing that our daughter could come through our email at any given time is starting to weigh on me. Literally, every time my phone buzzes that a new email has come in, I immediately check to see if it’s Holt. 99% of the time, it either isn’t Holt, or it is Holt with a referral email that only features children from other countries. At that time, I either think or verbally say, “Uh- Stupid email…” while also getting a little frustrated at myself for getting SO excited every time I get a new email. Do ya’ll have any idea how many emails I get a day?! Times that by a bit of frustration and discouragement every time one hits the inbox…
Since January is over, we are HOPEFULLY down to only four months of having to wait for a match. I have some adorable little skirts and hair bows that I’m DYING to try on an adorable little almond eyed beauty. It doesn’t help that every time I try to give them a test run on P, he downright refuses and says, “Uh- Mommy! Skuts are for gurs!” Same thing goes for head bands, hair bows, or anything pink...
"Uhg!" to Justin for brainwashing our little boy…
Until we see Ruby- Grace's beautiful face, I am hanging onto each and everyone one of His comforting words:
Wait for the Lord; Be strong, and let your heart take courage; Yes, wait for the Lord.
*God’s comforting and assuring words
*Ruby Grace’s birth mommy, who has chosen life and love for our precious little one. She will never know how much her sacrifice has already blessed our family.