Among the outreach, several people have also had questions, which, I’m ok for people asking honestly. I’m sure I’d be curious and concerned too. Again, I don’t plan to answer all the questions out of respect and privacy reasons for both her and us, but I thought I’d address just a few of the bigger/easier/more appropriate ones here for all to read. Again, I’m in no way offended or hurt by any of the questions/comments that have been asked/said, there are just some things that I’m not comfortable with sharing and don’t think would be fair for me to answer.
**I would also like to ask that you insert an understood “As of today” before each of my answers. Things have been so up, down, back, front, left, right, inside, outside that I have decided I’m going to stop trying to be definite. God will work and could very well change these answers tomorrow-this afternoon for that matter. We are just focusing on being flexible and listening to His will…**
Are we still going to adopt?
Absolutely! And, we are EXCITED about it! I don’t see God ever changing this desire and plan for us.
As of today, yes. We feel that is where God wants us right now. Though, I’ll be honest… God has really had Haiti and Ethiopia on my heart a lot lately too… though we in no way meet the requirements of those countries right now. Maybe down the road??? And as always, I think I’ll forever have this unexplainable love for China, which is where our precious Caroline lives. But for today, Korea.
Do we think we will get another referral anytime soon?
Realistically, no. (And my earthly mind says my heart needs time to heal anyway.) To be incredibly frank, we were a smidge bit traumatized by this recent situation. We have drastically changed our SN preferences. Our agency has shared with us that they are not getting many Korean girl referrals at all, let alone ones with such minor/correctible needs, such as the ones Justin and I feel equipped to handle. However, I know that God is in the miracle business. Statistics don’t define when we will/will not get a referral. Right now, we are back to waiting. In six months or so, if there is absolutely no sign of movement we will reevaluate and see where we stand. God is bigger. If He wants us to wait, we’ll wait. If He doesn’t, we won’t. If He leads us to change programs/preferences/paths, we will. As of now, we’re “being still and knowing He is God.” Psalm 46:10.
Still a girl?
Again, we still think God has a daughter for us. We dream of almond brown eyes and black silky piggy tails tied up with pink ribbons. We are also already approved for a female child. We would have to do Home Study updates if we changed to be approved for a little boy. However, we are praying ferociously that if God wants us to be open to either gender that He move our hearts in an unmistakable way. I also want to clarify that we don’t value ‘girls’ more than ‘boys.’ We do, in fact, already have a little boy that we love more than life itself. Boys rock. We just are feeling our Ruby-Grace is still out there.
Are you still traveling with your friend to Korea to bring home her little boy?
Yep! Can. Not. Wait!!! I think it will be so good for me and hopefully, I will be a big help to her and Tay as well. Geez, I cannot even express how excited I am about this opportunity. And to be submersed in Asian culture for a week? Eeeek!!!! TC anyone?!
Will you “pu-leez” journal your experience in Korea?
Ummmm- we shall see. I definitely want the focus to be on Amanda and Taylor. However, as I stated yesterday, I seem to feel better after I write, so maybe? I hate to say one way or another. I know the experience will be very emotional for me even though I think it will be in an awesome way. And I may have a tail-kickin from jet lag. I’ve never traveled across the world before. So, I’m open to it. Again, taking it daily.
How are you, really?
Well, my friends, this is a smidge bit of a loaded question. Heartbroken? Yes. Sad? Yes. But, I am honestly ok. And I smile lots throughout each day. God has truly granted Justin and I the “peace that passes understanding.” However, as I told another friend earlier today, there is the occasional episode in the Home Depot Lighting Department where I’m sobbing my eyes out for no apparent reason. Thank goodness I have a WONDERFUL husband who is willing to give me a squeeze and an “I love you. It’s all going to be ok,” rather than being embarrassed and acting like he has no clue who that crazy lady is over there. Grief has no agenda and seems to rear its ugly head in the most random times/places. It will take time. To me, that should be a ‘given’ statement.
A question/statement combo. Why don’t you , Can’t you or You and Justin should just have another baby./?
Welp- at this point, we don’t feel led to attempt to get pregnant. As far as we know, there would be no reason we couldn’t, per se, but to us, we just don’t feel led to go down that road at the moment. We do hope to one day actually birth another child (as I not-so-secretly hope to also adopt a second child.) But who knows? What’s that old saying? Want to make God laugh? Tell Him your plans? Again, we shall see, but we just aren’t feelin’ it at the moment.
Are you still running the auction blog/taking donations?
Yes and yes! We are still doing all we can to raise money for the adoption. I would be SO humbled for an adoption auction donation. If you have something you'd like to donate (nothing too big or too small), please email me at firstname.lastname@example.org. I do also have a few things sitting on my kitchen table that I need to list. Ever since the holidays (were they really FOUR months ago?!) things have been CRAZY and I put the auction on the backburner. I will make that my weekend goal and will do a big post once I've got a bunch of new stuff posted. There are definitely some things you don't want to miss out on!!!
And the one that seemed the most random, but I guess is somehow relevant: How old are you and Justin and how long have you two been married?
I’d like to say we are a very mature ;) 25/27 year old couple who will be celebrating their five year anniversary this upcoming May 12!
As always, I do want to be as open and honest as I can (while keeping in mind that this is on the world wide web for all to see) with our lives on this blog, I do want to throw in a few occasional jokes and ‘happies’, and I do want to share my love of Jesus Christ in hopes that it may turn someone’s eyes toward Him. I hope this little Q&A answered some of the questions that may be flowing through your mind. If you have something specific you would like to know about adoption or our specific adoption journey, I’m happy for you to ask, and if I feel its appropriate or would benefit you/me to answer, I’d be happy to do so.
Again, thank you beyond words for your prayers and kind words. We’d be honored to continue to be lifted up. I’d like to close by saying that I believe God is doing GREAT things!!! We cannot wait to see all that He has up His sleeve!
God of wonders, beyond our galaxy
You are holy, holy
Precious Lord, reveal Your heart to me
Father hold me, hold me